Haiz...
My math really sucks!
I hate maths and thats why I've picked chemistry over electronic
But 1st year have to take it and I just cant get high marks for these subjects.
線形got 20/50 数学演習 got 51/100 無機 unknown but mostly failed
In order to pass these subject for this semester, I have to at least get 40 for 線形, 69 for 数学演習.
But getting that is kinda impossible for me since the final for this semester will be in 2 weeks time.
I've been telling myself that I should study but things just wont go according to plan.
Havent been studying since last wednesday and those things that I dont understand keep piling up.
I should start studying really hard or else I'll have to retake the subject again next year!
I got 3 more reports that needs to pass up on monday and I havent started doing it at all.
Planning to do that this weekend but before that, I have to go to uni tomorrow morning for that lame 教養セミthingy.
Is something like group work. Choose a topic, research on it and present it tomorrow.
That thing will end around 12noon so may be will start doing it after reaching home.
Aaaa~h.... Study ah!
I dont want to retake it again!
NEVER!
Friday, July 08, 2011
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
lalal~a
Feeling very emo in the middle of the night.
And recently, my life has been upside down.
Sleeping in the daytime(weekend) and cant sleep in the night(even weekdays)
If I looked back in those days during secondary, I will never imagine that I actually come to Japan for studies.
It was so fun and I dont have to worry about this and that.
Go to school every morning or may be skip some if I dont feel like going.
Go for tuition with everyone after school.
Life was simple and happy.
Things will be way different if I didnt decide to come here.
Everything from personality, things around me, people around me.
And that might actually happen.
Now that I've come here, japanese is still a problem for me.
Communicating with them is troublesome and I just cant blend in.
May be is my problem.
Not to mention different cultures with different thinking.
Sometimes i wonder how I look in their eyes.
The lessons are tough and I just dont know what the lecturers are teaching.
Hasn't been revising since last wednesday and that night, I went for billiard for the first time.
It was fun and expensive!
Everything here are expensive!
I have to think twice just to eat a meal and I get hungry easily no matter how much I eat!
Like just now during dinner which I had in uni.
I ate 瀘肉饭(something like that) which cost me 430yen.
For the first time it taste like hometown and I wanted to have a second serving.
But in the end, I didnt since it is expensive.
Coming here spent a lot of money and the lesson fee also very expensive.
Around rm20k just for one sem.
Not to mention the living cost.
I've been thinking what if I cant graduate?
Mum will be very disappointed and I just dont know how to face it.
Even if I do graduate, can I earn back what I spent for studies?
How many years will it takes?
haiz...
Oh ya, reasons of me being emo?
I dont know. Many things just stirring up in my thought.
This and that, bla bla bla.
Recently I've been chatting with someone.
And *** keep talking about ***.
Because of that I had a weird dream last night.
Not that I hate it, in fact i like that dream very much.
Well, chances of that happening in real like is practically 0.
What I've decided during secondary, is it ok?
Or I should have done it?
While on that, a close friend of mine during secondary(not sure if she thinks the same), HST is going to Aussie next week?
Yeah, Im mentioning about you here.
Hi, Butt Fucker Teng.
Didnt really talk to her after we left secondary although we're both in kl when I was learning japanese.
Now that I'm in Japan and she'll be going to Aussie, meeting her again is also like practically 0.
Gonna miss you.
Glad that I meet you xD
And I mean it.
According to Japan's time, now is 1.18am.
I should go to the bed but even if I do that, I'll just turn around and around and around.
There will be a small gathering with friends having takoyaki and some alcohol.
I'll just drink as much as I can I forget about everything, even just for one night.
Good night people.
Oh yeah, HST, take good care.
Hope that we do meet in the future again.
And recently, my life has been upside down.
Sleeping in the daytime(weekend) and cant sleep in the night(even weekdays)
If I looked back in those days during secondary, I will never imagine that I actually come to Japan for studies.
It was so fun and I dont have to worry about this and that.
Go to school every morning or may be skip some if I dont feel like going.
Go for tuition with everyone after school.
Life was simple and happy.
Things will be way different if I didnt decide to come here.
Everything from personality, things around me, people around me.
And that might actually happen.
Now that I've come here, japanese is still a problem for me.
Communicating with them is troublesome and I just cant blend in.
May be is my problem.
Not to mention different cultures with different thinking.
Sometimes i wonder how I look in their eyes.
The lessons are tough and I just dont know what the lecturers are teaching.
Hasn't been revising since last wednesday and that night, I went for billiard for the first time.
It was fun and expensive!
Everything here are expensive!
I have to think twice just to eat a meal and I get hungry easily no matter how much I eat!
Like just now during dinner which I had in uni.
I ate 瀘肉饭(something like that) which cost me 430yen.
For the first time it taste like hometown and I wanted to have a second serving.
But in the end, I didnt since it is expensive.
Coming here spent a lot of money and the lesson fee also very expensive.
Around rm20k just for one sem.
Not to mention the living cost.
I've been thinking what if I cant graduate?
Mum will be very disappointed and I just dont know how to face it.
Even if I do graduate, can I earn back what I spent for studies?
How many years will it takes?
haiz...
Oh ya, reasons of me being emo?
I dont know. Many things just stirring up in my thought.
This and that, bla bla bla.
Recently I've been chatting with someone.
And *** keep talking about ***.
Because of that I had a weird dream last night.
Not that I hate it, in fact i like that dream very much.
Well, chances of that happening in real like is practically 0.
What I've decided during secondary, is it ok?
Or I should have done it?
While on that, a close friend of mine during secondary(not sure if she thinks the same), HST is going to Aussie next week?
Yeah, Im mentioning about you here.
Hi, Butt Fucker Teng.
Didnt really talk to her after we left secondary although we're both in kl when I was learning japanese.
Now that I'm in Japan and she'll be going to Aussie, meeting her again is also like practically 0.
Gonna miss you.
Glad that I meet you xD
And I mean it.
According to Japan's time, now is 1.18am.
I should go to the bed but even if I do that, I'll just turn around and around and around.
There will be a small gathering with friends having takoyaki and some alcohol.
I'll just drink as much as I can I forget about everything, even just for one night.
Good night people.
Oh yeah, HST, take good care.
Hope that we do meet in the future again.
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