Determination, Motivation

Its been a while since i last updated my blog.
Well, today is the end of the 3rd week of the 18months study.
Minus the 1st day for orientation and 1st of May last friday, I've studied japanese for 13days.
13days is not much but I've learned a lot.

During today's 2hours and 15mins break, I went lunch with suika-san, wei-san kin meng-san and kin wai-san.
On the way to mid valley, they talked about University in Japan and how much you need to get in your University Entrance Exam and EJU in order to enter the national universities.
In order to get into national universities, you need above average score.
Because it is cheaper than private universities and when I mean cheaper, I mean A LOT CHEAPER than national universties.

Everyone knows that I'm a lazy bum that hate studies a lot and always try to avoid it and skipped schools during form 4 and form 5.
So I was thinking can I be one of those that can make it into national universities and get the subject that I want to study?
I didnt talk when they are chatting about this topic and suika-san asked why am I so quiet.
Hearing from them about the condition to enter national universities really worry me a lot.

Sometimes when I'm real boring during the class or when the japanese is getting tough, it makes me wonder that did I choose the right choice?
Or is it a bad choice for me to study japanese?

1 of my friend quit the japanese language course.
Is not because that it is too tough that he gave up but is because he's having financial problem and his parents do not support him to study.
He paid the 1st month by himself.
We have to pay around RM2300 for the 1st month, RM 1600 for the second month and RM1000 for the rest of the months.

Knowing this, it really sadden me because how come there are parents that dont support their children to study?
C'mon, arent he better compare to those bastard that bring empty bag to school to goyang their buttock or create havoc in school?
You should be very happy that your child want to study without anyone forcing him.

To those who can enter college without financial problem, appreciate of what you have.
Dont always complain just because you dont have an air-condition room at your dorm or rented room, etc.
And dont choose something that doenst suit you just because your friends are choosing it or no one is accompanying you in the course that you wanted.
1 more thing, I'm not trying to point out anyone but dont study because of your parents' dream, study because of your dream.
Although my principal only said this once but I always remember it
''I hope I didnt see you here because of your parents' dream but your dream to further study in Japan.''

Everyday I have problem waking up early in the morning.
1st alarm at 7am and the 2nd alarm at 7.15am.
I always wanted to skip class but if I skip even ONE class, I'll miss A LOT of things.
To motivate myself so that I'll wake up every morning, I tell myself that I'm going Japan today.
Kinda weird thing to motivate one but it works, at least for me.

Those japanese words and grammars are tough.
They are hard to pronouce and hard to remember because there are too many different names just for the name of the days in a month.

1st day to 10th days of the months have their own name.
20th have its own name too.
14th and 24th got a speacial name too.

Although it is very hard, I'll tell myself that I'm going to Japan to fulfil my dreams.
And I know there are many laughing at me since I choose to study japanese.
Yeah, I know that.
Sorry to disappoint you but the more you look down or laugh at me, the higher possibility that I will succeed.
Like those of you who looked down on me last time.
I did succeed and is better than you guys.

Oh well, I've talked too much.
さようなら


To those who gonna start their study soon, good luck.
To my mummy, Happy Mothers' Day!

P.S.If I've offended anyone in anyway by this post, I'm sorry